The Approach
Slow dew drummed the doorstep
like the dying of a beating heart.
“I’m not going.”
“Why
not?”
“The timing isn’t right.”
“Conditions
are as good as they get.”
“Would you go, up there,
with him?”
Etched
from time and hardened by weathers, the Ranger’s face complimented him. Though
the debate had sputtered along for some time, the Ranger’s voice remained deep,
smooth and calm. “I have. Something like that takes two. Quit’n on short notice
aren’t ya.”
“Nope,” said the wide-eyed
young man. “I don’t think he can do it. Do you think he can do it?” The second
man was short, stocky and carried a bit of a college-boy’s belly. “Told him I’d
meet him here this morning but I never said I’d go.” His brown eyes flashed as
he rubbed his light-brown hair but his eyes remained downcast because they
could not meet the Ranger’s gaze.
The Ranger listened and
after sorting what he heard said, “He’s counting on you. Something like that
takes two. Two working like one. Haven’t I seen you training together?” The
Ranger squinted hard at the young man before him.
The young man brushed the
toe of a shoe with the sole of the other. “Sure, we’ve been training together.
I never said I’d go. I said I’d be here this morning and we’d see. You don’t
think I’m scared do ya.”
The old man looked long at
the younger. “Chan, there’s always plenty of afraid.” He tipped his hat back
then frowned and smiled simultaneously using different ends. “But if’n a man
wants the mountains, he has to pay the mountain price…Come on and help me open
up. Be lots of folks through here today. Supposed to be three or four days of
fine weather.” The Ranger spoke at the young man. “Good climbing weather.”
“Will he be mad?” Chan
placed his hands in his pockets. “Mad about me not going?”
“Here, hold these reports
while I open this lock. I can never get this damn door open.” The Ranger waited
for the hands to come up then gave over the papers. “I’ve tried fixing it so
the door swings easier and the lock’s easier to get to then the dern weather
blows right on around, and the lock gets water inside n’freezes up. Damn doors
never swing the way ya want em.” He opened the lock and the door then
remembered. “Put those reports there on top of the cabinet.” The Ranger swung
the door wide and entered. “Wouldn’t you be mad if things were reversed? He’s
wanted to finish that route since he failed at it. Have a seat.” The Ranger
gestured.
Chan followed and descended
to the chair in the corner of the room but kept the papers in his lap. His hat
was on straight. Relaxing his arms behind his head, he watched the Ranger, who
prowled across the room, using long strides with head and neck bent forward as
if he were about to walk across the country, but now the intention was to
unlock each of the four cabin windows from the inside. The Ranger ended his
route at the threshold where countless lugged soles had passed.
The Ranger knitted his brow,
glanced at Chan, eyed the small pool of dew at the doorstep then progressed out
to the porch proper where the view was one of distinct layers, green giving way
to gray then to brilliant white.
The white at the head of the
valley was White’s Mountain, named after a prospector, who ventured up the
valley searching for riches and whose faded black and white tintype hung in the
tiny ranger cabin. In the ancient photo, bucket in hand, prospector White
smiled alongside a nameless mule. Soon after the photo was developed, White
departed with his dream but never returned from his search as if the mountain
swallowed him whole, mule and all.
The Ranger turned from his
tranquil view to stare through the open door to the young man in the corner.
“Will Brian be here soon?” he asked.
“He said first light and its
light. Maybe he isn’t coming. Maybe he doesn’t want to come.”
“Chan, you know he will be
here and put them papers where I said. Do you think you own the place?” The
Ranger turned his back and waited.
Chan placed the papers on
top of the cabinet, straightened them and joined the Ranger on the porch before
the mountain. “Would you climb with him? I know you were his teacher but would
you climb with him now?”
“I’d climb with him and
have. There’s nothing wrong with him. He certainly isn’t lazy like some.”
“Well the guy maybe killed
one climbing partner and just maybe another. He’s been injured real bad and
couldn’t walk for a long time.” Chan waited for the return but nothing then
took a deep breath and said, “About three months ago, he comes over to my place
and asks if I want to do some climbing. I’m always looking for someone to go
with so I say, ‘sure’ and we start climbing together. I don’t know what he once
was but he isn’t smooth anymore. He is strong all right and not a bad guy to be
around but he just isn’t smooth.” Chan glanced up at the Ranger. “He is so
quiet sometimes it’s spooky.”
“There’s nothing wrong with
quiet. Maybe more should practice it.”
“You’re on his side.”
“Chan, first off I don’t
believe in sides I believe in the middle. It makes life a whole lot easier.
Maybe more should practice it.” His voice was calm and even, fatherly. “Sure,
Brian’s had his problems, and he’s gone through a lot trying to get over them.
His life has given a lot of folks around here plenty to talk about.” The Ranger
squared his hat. “That’s the way it is and nothing can change what has
happened…I’m sure he wishes he could reach back and do over.” The Ranger’s
voice flowed like a deep pool in a wide river.
“There was that business on
that big mountain in the Himalayas. Come on now. What do you think? Tell me.”
Chan’s voice rose and almost squeaked; he brushed at the moist wooden planking
with a hesitant toe and stuffed his hands in his pockets.
The Ranger said, “I wasn’t
there. I can’t say. He did what he had to do.”
Chan said, “I don’t want him
to do what he has to do to me. I don’t like the way this feels. He’s trying to
prove something or ready for suicide.”
The Route
Dhaulagiri is one of the highest mountains in the world.
Positioned in a remote Asian country, the mountain shadows the world’s deepest
river valley. In Tibetan, Dhaulagiri translates to the rock that stands alone.
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They say that when moisture
falls on the Himalayas, it descends by weight and warmth to the sea only to return
to the mountains via the monsoon. Life is a mountain that stands over us,
filling our perspective much as a child at its mother’s knee or the eager
student before the wise teacher. Existence waits with great patience for that
instant when our hopeful soul locks onto and accepts the immensity of being.
From that moment, we go forward, go around or go back but no matter the path,
fate has found direction.
Red beret bouncing, the older climber
jogged down the trail and was soon far ahead and out of sight but today Brian
didn’t care about first or time or training because the gentle mountain air
seemed different. Around the last bend in the trail, he noticed a woman sunning
herself on a hard gray boulder, a glacial erratic.
The red beret had bounced passed
without slowing or hesitation, but Brian slowed and stopped.
“Hi.”
The woman casually turned from her
position. “Hello.”
“Excuse me miss, but is there a beach
near here?”
“No and there isn’t any peace and quiet
either.”
“I’ve never seen anyone bagging rays up
here. Only people you ever see up here are climbers, sometimes picnickers.
Trail’s too steep for most.”
“I didn’t think it was that bad.” She
glanced down the now empty trail and then at the man. “Was it tough for you?”
Her hair was long and blonde. The shiny-blue swimwear she wore accentuated her
pink lips and bright-blue eyes.
Brian rubbed his eyes. “No. I mean I
come up here all the time.” Though he was not moving, he tripped. “I’m a
climber.”
She studied him and then coy. “I
thought you were a surfer.”
“No, there isn’t any surf around here,
long way to the ocean. Lake can get some big waves on it if it gets windy.”
“Oh.”
Brian
paused and thought for a moment. “You’re giving me a hard time aren’t you?”
“Am I? What makes you think that?” The
woman fluffed her hair.
“Sorry.” He stepped forward, and the
motion soothed his voice. “Can I start over? My name is Brian, Brian Scott.”
The moment created confidence. “What’s yours?”
“Kathryn,” said the woman on the rock.
Hmmm-sounds intriguing-I always like stories about people climbing mountains
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